Authors Cruise

Holy crap! Today I'm going on that cruise with all the authors I'm sure I've mentioned before and... I'm nervous!! I'm so nervous! Of course I dreamt a nightmare about it, but I don't care! I don't know if I want to go... But I do... I've been looking forward to this for months! I'm not going to cancel but I feel that familiar feeling of not belonging. Maybe I shouldn't be there because I don't belong there... I hate that feeling... But anyway! Today I'm off!