Happy New Year

Happy New Year Folks!!

Thank you for reading my blog, I wish you a very happy 2014! It is what YOU make it! Make the best of it, do your best and the important thing is to be happy with yourself. If you are, nothing else matters!

Two days Left!

Wow... Hello! Yeah, I did have time to write here before new year! Oh yeah!

All right! What have I been doing since last time I wrote here.... Well, I've only been playing games and relaxing... Played Primal Carnage and GTA 5 and a lot of Sims 3 (I'm getting Sims University soon! YAY! I've been waiting for it!) and besides that... Nothing much... Just relaxing a lot since these last months have been kind of hard on me. But it feels SO good that everything is over.

Right, I was going to tell you why I hate Christmas so much... For me, it's the worst holiday and it's probably not because of the things you expect.

Yeah, my family comes together to tell me how useless and worthless I am and it bothers me a lot... I feel asleep one Christmas because I was so bored. I was at my fathers house and, I was pretty young and all you hear is how great it is with presents, so after I got my presents, there was  A LOT more to give and all I had to do was watch others open their presents so I fell asleep... again, I was young, I don't think like that anymore.

The food.... is disguisting! I don't know what they have all around other countries, but here in Sweden we have a special soda for Christmas and I feel sick every time I drink it. I really don't feel well when drinking it and of course my family can't remember that so I end up feeling really sick every christmas. The food... We have a ham that you eat and I can't stand it, it tastes.... Eu. So I don't eat that either. I don't drink mulled so that's off the menu too for me, the hotdog and selfmade meatballs.... See how fun it is to have me around on Christmas? It's not! I know it, my family tells me that every year. I don't eat anything, I don't drink anything so I'm just there for company and seeing how useless and worthless I am that's great company!

And here's the big part... The thing that makes Christmas the worst holiday... Because all that I get any time I see my family so....

I don't like getting presents. I really don't! There's so much demands in getting presents. You HAVE to like it no matter what it is. You HAVE to look happy and please. You HAVE to thank the person. You HAVE to get that person a present. You HAVE to use it at least ONCE until they're happy and they have to see you use it... I really hate getting presents! Even if it's something I like... There was something I used to do before, when I was young which was the funniest thing in the world for me.. I used to guess what was in the prackages. I felt it and listened and stuff like that and I loved it since I usually got it right! But then my family didn't think it was as fun that I could guess it so I had to stop... Now that's a reminder that I can't guess anymore no matter if I'm right or not.... So no! I don't like getting presents! I LOVE to give, I'm giver not a getter so... Please! Don't get me presents..

I've said to my friends too, don't give me presents because I don't like to get those and they listen to it and they don't. It's so... liberating not having to worry "am I going to like it?", "What did you get me?", "how much did you pay for it?" and so on.. Meow! No, I'm much happier that you want to be my friend. I don't need anything for it, your friendship is enough! All I ask is that you take your time and see me once in a while. That's all!

And that's another thing... You give each other presents once a year, and on their birthdays? I give things just because I want my friends to be happy. I don't care if its their birthday or if tis the season. No, screw that! I want to see my friends happy and if I see something that I think they'll like I'll buy it. If I think they'll be happy for something I can make, I'll make it! I don't wait around for that day... Those days are just there for familys to get together and scold you! That's all they're there for... And I'll endure it every year... And if you're wondering, yeah I don't like celebrating my birthday either. It's the same rutin except everybody is looking at you instead of their own presents... Oh, and I don't like cake either...

Just... Don't give me presents... Don't feed me.... Just be with me and have fun with me. That's all I'm asking.

Swedish Christmas!

Well! Today is Christmas! .... Yeah, I don't like christmas, but I'll tell you about that when Christmas is over! Today I'm going to try to have a jolly time! And so....

I bought Primal Carnage today!!! And it works on my computer!!! Oh God, I'm going to spend a lot of time playing that game... I'm hoping... Yeah, I kind of suck at gameplay, so hopefully I can manage this! I'll do my best anyway because it looks a lot of fun! But I'll have to do that after the Christmas celebration!

And here's a photo of one of the things I've been sewing this December. Merry Christmas to everyone who's reading this!

23 December

Oh, wow... It's been a while since I wrote here... Sorry about that but I've been pretty busy...

I've worked on the Christmas photostory, sewing stuff for my dolls, presents and their Christmas outfits.  I've been writing a script for the photostory and I've been photographing it!

Oh, and I worked on Mother's Christmas present as well which was a pen drawing of her idol which took some time to do... I used an A2 format and worked four hours a day since that's when mother was at work.

So there's been A LOT! I've worked with this from 11am to about 10pm. I haven't gotten much rest, my body is breaking everytime I move... or it feels like it.. My legs are so stiff that everytime I move they hurt and sometimes it hurts so much that I can't move it. My chest, already having problems before this, is pretty much the same... It hurts SO much sometimes that I can't breath.

But!! It's all worth it, I'm not really complaining, I'm just.... This is the penalty I pay for all the great stuff I get to do. So I'm not complaining. I'm just telling you some facts. Although I'm not done yet. Yesterday I celebrated Christmas so I couldn't really work that day... Although when I finally got to relax I noticed how tired I actually were! But, anyway! Not the point. The point is that satturday I photographed a lot... Didn't have time with everything because around 8pm I kind of collapsed because I was so tired... Didn't plan on that! Hopefully it won't happen today. So, today I'm going to photograph the last things! The photostory and hopefully the outfits, depending on how late it turns out to be when I'm done.

Tomorrow is Christmas! ... At least for us Sweds... So tomorrow I'm not going to do anything but open presents and be sick from all the Christmas food so, I'm hoping I get everything finished today so that all I need to do on the 25th is post and rest! ... And buy GTA 5 with my birthday money! Well! I'm probably going to be more active here again, now that everything for Christmas is done! See you later!! Bye bye now! Take care and have a wonderful christmas on the 25th!

Months of Holidays

Yay! The Halloween rush is over!
... And what comes after the Halloween rush? ... No, not Thanksgiving! We don't celebrate thanksgiving in Sweden! So... Now it's... Christmas rush! Yay!

I'm not really going to have the time or strength to uptade in a while... This Sunday is my birthday so I'm going to have a hard time with that... Then I have Christmas presents and more costumes to my dolls! Yay! After that.... Probably sometime next year I'm going to post a few pictures of my work I think ... I have a lot to do.. Still getting little sleep so not much energy, but I'll do my best as always!

"Take care now, bye bye then!"

Mother's love

Okay... Hi! Hello! Love you all and stuff like that... Right now I'm slightly irritated and... Yeah! I'm gonna complain a little!

My mother... Lovely mother. Absolutely love her! Well... I don't like it when she's searching job for me. I know, I should take every help that I can get and that I shouldn't be picky about the job or anything like that, but I'm sorry! I can't do that! I can't work on something I don't like! So!

Yesterday she handed me a work-thing... I told her that I have difficulties talking in the phone.. Or rather calling. I panic everytime I'm calling someone. So finally she picked up on that and handed me a paper about a job which didn't require me answering a phone or anything. And I appriciated that. I was just so glad that my mother took in what I said and that she thought about it. I was really happy about it!

Then I get an email from her this morning... Turns out she doesn't listen to everything I say. She says: "I thought you would like this, like you did the other thing! It's different!" ... Well yeah, I'm all for different but... This is not different. I told her, during the cruise, which is a little more than a week ago! That I HATE dancing! I can't STAND to dance, the coreograph and that there's just one way to do it ang urgh! I absolutely hate dancing, and I said that to her, in that way! What does she do? She sends me an add on a dancing job?! WHAT THE FUCK?!

Yesterday she had taken in everything that I said! Today, not so much! This is why I don't like it when someone searches a job for me! They just... "I thought you would like it!" Oh yeah! But I told you I hate dancing.... Ehum, I don't really see how they come together. Nope! So yeah! Now I'm irritated and I'm going to work on a dress right now and I'm shaking for all the frustration... Why? Just, just... Why? We had a moment and then you go around and ruin it! Why do you keep doing that?! .... It's a mother's job to ruin good moments. But I still love her.

Love your mum because all they're trying to do is help you. That's all they're doing.

Sp33dy & CO.

Okay.. You all know that I've dreamt nothing but nightmares for the past month.. This night I dreamt one awesome dream!

I dreamt that I was in the GTA V game as one of the characters. Not only that, but Speedy, TheG18, Deluxe 4, NobodyEpic, Im Jahova and SideArms was there too. (If you don't know who these are, check them out on Speedy's channel: http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCEe076nFuVobN0bAsXK7ICw )

Anyway, we were being hunted by a gang and... It's GTA so cars were flying everywhere, G18 stole a plane (of course) and flew around in that and finally our car and the gangs car broke down, by this point, Deluxe 4 was dead and NobodyEpic was gone somewhere. So it was me, Speedy, Jahova and SideArms running away from the gang members and avoiding gunshots. We tried to hide behind a bench to avoid the bullets (there were dead civilians on the bench so we used their bodys as a shield) but then Speedy died. SideArms finally just ran towards the gang and hid behind the wall closer to them. Jahova screamed "You're crazy!" after him, while I thought: "He didn't die from that. Speedy died right next to me, but SideArms who ran towards them are still alive". So I ran too, Jahova trying to stop me, but I managed to hide behind another wall close to the gang members. After that Jahova died. It was just me and SideArms left and he said: "We can take them. You and me!" I saw his gun in his and so I reached down in my pocket and felt nothing but fabric. "I have no weapon" I said and then I woke up.

... I don't concider this a Nightmare because, all the time I knew I was in GTA V. Those who died would spawn somewhere else and we just had so much fun. We were just playing a game of GTA V, that's all. Although I was in the game playing... Anyway! I wanted to go back to sleep and continue the dream, but... I can't! Oh, well.. It was an awesome dream anyway! Now I really want to buy the GTA V game... Bye!